reflecting

I guess it is oftentimes good to make a complete fool of oneself when we are still young so that we still have the excuse of youth and the opportunity to learn from mistakes so that life becomes more enjoyable and optimism becomes natural as time continues its long path.
I choose this color because it is bright and reflects hope and happiness.

Durga Asthmi

It was on the 8th day that the demon Mahisaasur was slayed by the Devi and peace was once more maintained.
Today I did not think that I would make it to the temple for the night of the Asthmi, because of a 6pm class, however at 8:45 I walked in there, even made it in time for the devi mantra!!!
I cannot explain how fulfilled I felt that I found myself in the temple today, I knew that I was meant to be there!
During the Navraatri period, the fasting is more like a cleansing of the spirit, as I realise that probably my biggest demon lies inside of me and that the course of my life, and planes of heavenly bliss or the fires of hell are controlled by my thought. I can either let the demonic qualites overcome me or I can defeat it with a greater love for man , for humanity, for life.

An auspicious Time

We are in the Nauvraatri clelebrations now and the air is filled with an energy that can probably only be correlated to Shakti as now we are more focused on it. I was feeling a bit disturbed lately and on Friday night I decided to go to the temple, upon seeing the Devi in all her glory, the misery in my heart was quelled, I had found myself in the embrace of the divine mother.

A bit of an explanation of the Shakti, in looking at the aspect of God as the static (shiva) (potential energy) and then there is the dynamic or shakti (kinetic energy), of the universe, has always been there, never lost, just simply converted from form to form.

Last night I had a rather difficult time sleeping, I felt as if there was something that needed to be done and I even woke up several times during the night trying to figure it out.
It was in the morning that I realised my restlessness, In looking through some papers I found my Gita and started reading it, everything seemed to fall into perspective. In looking at the events of my life so far, I realise the purpose of each player and every tear.

My view of the world is slowy changing and in doing so, my responsivness to it is changing as well. I am finding it harder to exist in the physical world and be affected by the normal emotions of everyday life.

In this time I believe that our inner demons (basal qualities) are aggrivated because they are brought out in the open against the auspiciousness of the celebrations. Durga ( the invincible) manifested whenever there are demons to destroy them. The kundalini that rises, destroying all ego and vices. It is up to us to not give in to these demons but to seek the blessings of the Devi and to overcome these demons and find ourself in peace. In doing so one finds a contentment and pecefullness in life that keeps a constant smile on their face.

Thoughts on the restore point

I had once thought about how the computer has a restore point so that we can go back to a period of life where it did not change. well since the hard drive got burned out I lost a lot of files, some incomplete poems thougths and letters written to myself.
Reflecting on this I am glad that I lost them.
having held on to them so long, now I am finally free.
thinking about the immortality of words, the destruction of these files somehow helped me to let go and focus more.