String Theory

From my grafitti :P

Divorced

In a murky dark place for the past year,
Awakened and set free.
Bound by my own mind, tormented by my own heart,seeking love from one living with too many of his own demons.

The unfulfilled heart, the saddened and unforgiving soul, can never love another, until he can love himself.

What is a man, if he can live without love...


Finally to awake fully from a nightmare and with clarity look back on the child that was married, then left alone by a man who was nothing more than a boy.

Divorced, but free. I'd rather live without the thorn, there are many other different kinds of flowers, many without thorns.

A year of questions, a year of blame, a year of pain, the only way to escape the darkness is to find the courage to walk through it, the reality to open my eyes and to stop making excuses for him.
To walk through the darkness, and overcome the fear.

Trinidad's first female Prime Minister!!!

She won by a landslide!
For a long time this little island,has waited for a change, after being ruled by a political party that pardoned terrorists, decided that a blimp was an effective tool to fight crime with, a prime minister who appointed his wife as minister of Education, yes we needed change!
A little country struggling with a ridiculous murder rate, compared to the size of the population, a prime minister who led the country into financial ruin, finally the people have risen and spoken.
A political fool, who calls an early election twice and loses twice! How was he ever elected in the first place? Then again he did fill the country with his own 'citizens'.
Finally!!! Congratulations Kamla Persaud Bissasar, our new prime minister, the country has been steered a bit off course over the past decade, this is the time to try and set the wheels of change in motion so that this tiny little island can prosper.
I cannot believe it, we have waited for this so long, It is incredible, listening to live feed from the radio, and hearing the relief and joy in the peoples' voice!

Intrinsic fulfillment

It was a discussion about why we do what we do.
In terms of jobs to simply gain an extrinsic reward.
Considering this we can think about how after repetition and familiarity begins to erode the extrinsic barrier and we find ourselves actually becoming addicted or hooked on the intrinsic rewards of skill built on practice and comfort because of predictability and familiarity of we do, or rather assume that we know how to do well.
Knowing this we crave the 'pseudo intrinsic' reward now simply because it is what we've trained ourselves to predict and want.
Almost like falling in love with your captor or learning to love the thorn in your side because you've trained yourself to live with a familiar pain or a familiar face....all based on predictability.
But then again for the restless, how or when do we know to just remove the thorn, let it bleed and run , or rather should we say race forward towards true fulfillment?

One this topic I will ask the random blogger, then why do we write and share our deepest thoughts with an unknown audience rather than communicate to those around us?
What are we seeking?